[Verse 1]
This the story of, my life, and how it got told
Gettin old like the ruins
Poker hand and then fold
They out here in the winter, bareass, naked and cold
Walk up right to a stranger and they say this shit is so bold
And yeah they ask if it’s free, or will it unpleasure me
Does it cost to go see the act
That you wanna go see
I’m shutting down with no glee, bitch yea it’s older than me
You either do it, you don’t
Yeah we gon have to wait and see
I said take it, they said nah
People look around in awe
It’s not the shit they base it off
When I hear all I want is bras
It’s not the same anymore
Yeah, It’s not the same anymore
Revert it back motherfucker still not the same anymore
But it’s more real than that
When I hear
What I might be
How I portray and slay to the ones that do like me
I said it’s guaranteed
To be on MTV
And then TMZ just try to envy me
And then I hear the stories
Realize my life not that important
Just grew up an orphan and I got a couple organs
And I was raped, beaten, and battered
Later on, but at 10
I had no where to go
Only a couple dollars then
It was all
In the aftermath of all that I encountered
Lasted a thousand hours
For the pain that I devoured
Pulled out the gun
And mom got shot with no audio
Running round town for help, like this was cardio
My mind stuck here yeah it’s at a fucking stalemate
Tryna Process
The stress
When I get depressed
I possess nothing
I think that I’m worth nothing
Why am I worth loving?
And why do they start coming
And then somehow, miraculously
I got outta hell
I go and get outta jail and then I go start to inhale
When I hit high school
I wasn’t such a bright tool
But my past I used
As an excuse
For all my befooled
Moments I didn’t loan it
Man, it was crazy tho
I didn’t own it
Drove away from the party
Got a call that said push me
Come back here and have a drink you fucking pussy
I pulled Back up
And this shit just got crazier
Had a bit to drink
Thinking that everyone hated ya
I didn’t wanna try it
They said do it you retarded
Turn the key in the car and oh man now yeah it started
I started driving
I’m smiling
Everything became real
And at the end of the night, I’m in a tree with a squeal
And now back to me
I got depression, anxiety
Everything is inside of me
I can’t really take it yeah
But my brain went and lied to me
And just to clear it up
I’ve never ever been suicidal
I write about it for the message
And for survival
I got a gun and a rifle
While I’m just stuck in denial
But it don't take that much effort
Man all I need is a smile
Settin’ XMPLS