[Intro]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama

[Verse 1]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama
I pray to god we can beat the odds
I do drugz me and a junkie two peas of a pod
But we different I guess there's a difference
Cause I'm high functioning like keep punching him
Stomachs rumbling critics mumbling
Losing it is troubling so I keep hustling
Arkansas asylum is where I stay don't be frightened
Weed may slow you down but my senses have heightened
Shine like a diamond is so cliche
Keep the hate I gotta special way to repay
Fast forward my life then look back on the replay
When I was stressed never thought I would see this day
Right now I'm trapped inside my mind why am I this way
They can't figure me out its like I'm a maze
To understand me it would take 6,570 days
Doctor do you have the time
Hold that thought while I roll this dime
God forgive me while I do this crime
Pablo Escobar in his prime
That's me, casualty , I passionately
Get rid of these demons rebuke them from me
I walk on the hearts of past lovers
So many fish got caught in my covers
And their hurt was the only thing I recovered
And their pain I discovered now I suffer
My heart got broke so now I'm tougher
I'm just tryna stay a float not go under
[Bridge]
The life of water
My life is shorter
Not one supporter
Drugz help me and sometimes they mind alter

[Refrain]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama

[Hook]
Locked inside my brain and you just missed the train
Of my thoughts so when I talk I hope you feel my pain
I'm tryna break out this jail and climb out of hell like Bane
I only cry when in the shower all my feelings going down the drain
And when it rains I feel it more than ever
When Ima see success what if it's never

[Verse 2]
I feel like I'm being stepped on by King Kong , after I swallowed a bomb
My dad was never there, and where the fuck is my mom
Bitvhes ain't shit but Molly makes me happy
Bitches ain't shit but Mary makes me happy
Other times I'm feeling crappy, like manure or shit in the sewer
Noose of life's struggles chokin me I can't get any bluer
Problem after problem they don't get no fewer
I graduated high school it's like I'm a loser
I'm at the bottom of the bottom, daddy should of used condom
Drugz help me play dead like a fiended out possum
Trapping ain't working, this rapping ain't working
A job isn't enough but one thing is certain
The stress of being the best is one of the worst burdens
I talk about the drugz they fix my face just like a surgeon
Other than that yeah I never smile
When they look in my eyes do they see I'm still that child
From the projects with the mental defects
That I got from my dad I think it's time to confess

[Refrain]
Loaded choppa
Missing papa
Sleeping pills mixed with vodka
If I die young, I luv u mama
We just living life with no drama