[Intro]
INFELIX

[Verse]
I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily
'Cause I'm afraid of judgement and I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
'Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew
I'm kinda weird, and not becausе it started being cool to be
But bеcause when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit, or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be
I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay
And I promise that I could, I swear to God, I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again, I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste
I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try
I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know
I've been floating, need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me
Or won't I allow myself, cause I'm scared of help?
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this? I don't think it is in the very slightest
I didn't break my own damn heart, I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me, I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me
[Outro]
I'll snap at any moment, I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling, real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me