(Ken, I fucking hate you)

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless, can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long, I almost just broke it
I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floating

This fucking probation got me all the way fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

Can't take it, I might just go meet Satan
Not faking, I think I might need saving
Life I hate it, not what I meant to create it
I'm so sick of fucking waiting, like when the fuck will I make it?

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'mma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

I don't feel like myself
I don't feel like myself
I don't feel likе myself
I don't feel like myself
I don't feel likе myself
I don't feel like myself at all
I miss the nights when you would call
You made me take down all my walls
Just to make me build more walls

FUCK THAT!

I'm tired singing the same song about the same bitch
It's like I'm taking pics of pain just to frame it
I made an album, shit I might as well of hanged it
Every tear that I drop, I should paint with

The way I'm going, I might as well live to be hurt
'Cause I make songs about pain just to be heard
I'm not right in my brain, I'm a loose screw
Hate me or love me, whichever one suits you

I can't feel neither, I'm numb anesthesia
Hate that I need her, I'm dumb, I'm no teacher
I spent my time when in school on a bleacher
Thoughts in my mind really making me weaker

I need a...shit, I don't know what I need in my life to believe
That I'm all that I need in this life to be pleased
I hate this place, I just wish I could leave
Fuck
I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless, can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long, I almost just broke it
I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floating

This fucking probation got me all the way fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'mma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication