[Verse 1]
Woke up in a pool of sweat
Told me I haven't paid my debt
And mommy said I shouldn't fret
I'll probably go and pass this test
And realize what's before my eyes
And soundly take off my disguise
And funny how I didn't know
But it felt like I loved you so
The pictures hanging on my walls
Always reminded me of fall
The colors had specific sounds
Couldn't tell when I looked around

[Chorus]
How am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits

[Verse 2]
The sun sets on my day, I cry
The tears flowing from my eyes
My thoughts keep getting worse and worse
The Xanax I put in your purse
Might kill me, but I will not hurt
Meaningful, but just hearing words
And drift off to another place
Might be nice, but another day
[Chorus]
How are you so hyperfocused?
Buzzing in my ears, the locusts
Eat my flesh and beg for more
Don't really know what's left in store
Someone's taking over now
So can you help me figure out
Like, what I did? The cherry pits
All crushed around me, what is this?
And how am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits