[hook]
Six cups of NeoCitran and I feel no pain
Sitting on the back porch outside in the cold rain
Chasing the cocaine walk the streets with no name
Look my nose change color like Rudolph I'm no saint
No pain no gain, told you I'm no angel
No rainbows or halos just lightning inhale boy
How could I fail boy just tap me up another rail boy

[Verse 1]
We don't ever do white with my shades on
When the sun is too bright I got devious plans to introduce tonight
So good at being bad I could never do right
When I was younger I had to go on special meds
In highschool the teachers put me in special ed
And kids made fun of me and my temper went bad
Once smashed a kids skull until his head bled
All over the dez they put me under arrest
But the charges couldn't be pressed too young I guess
Doctor said I was depressed so more meds were suggested
Never in my life have I ever been accepted
Not even now you would have thought I had a greater life
Lots of friends, popularity, a smile on my face
But I'm still ducking the hate I'll cover in scrapes
Still trudging through the mud fucking stuck in this place

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[Verse 2]
I always knew I was a little bit off, a little bit lost
But always knew I could do whatever I wanted
I always knew I was just a little bit haunted
On the playground I was haunted, anxiety problems
And the kids call me more names and cause me more pain
And every year that went by became more strange
Started braking into houses, wasn't playing board games
And all of a sudden one day the door rang
It was one of the kids I ran with
Then he had a gun he pointed at my mom and said
'this is for your son, if he tells the cops what happened then he's gonna get what's comin'
My mom was so scared she was sick to her stomach
Causing so much grief at all night I would spend
Those kids were just using me they weren't really my friends
I thought I was being cool, gangster like them
Guess I didn't know who I was I was trying to pretend


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