[Verse 1]
When the time was the darkest
Where the hell should I start this?
Broken heart in my chest, only showed me the best
But I'm looking for a light just to spark it
Damn, and I can feel that I'm resigned
I'm feeling each moment that we shared inside
And now I'm just rotting inside of my life like
Fuck, how should I vent?
How should I handle this sorrow and stress?
How should I tell you the truth? I'm writing my dues
I know that you knew you're the best
Damn, I always write these cheesy lines
Always been fond of those beautiful eyes
Always get nervous, I'm hurting, you're perfect
But love when you stare into mine
Let me just open my chest, hoping the best
Stuck in this drama thinking he's your guest
Stuck in this mess, emotion abuse
I feel like my heart's getting beaten and bruised
Feel like the only cure here is just you
You're happy with him so I'm happy for you
I'm sorry for all of the shit that I lose
I'm falling for you and I'm falling apart
I'm falling for you and I'm falling apart
I'm falling in glue and I'm stuck at the heart
I'm selfish and never gave anyone part
The bigger the star, the shorter the life
I wanna go far and follow the light
I'm broken inside, I'm not who you like
I always just vent through a pen when I write
(I always just vent through a pen when I write)
[Verse 2]
How can we change? You say you look ugly
But when on my phone you don't see that I'm loving
Your everything, thinking your makeup is nothing
Cause with or without, to me you're always something
And I know that I'm broken inside
Hoping to die, couldn't admit when it's crossing my mind
Knowing it isn't a matter of time
I just wanna give you my everything like
Get it together
Thinking of ways I can change to be better
Being myself isn't easy when severed
I'm never complete of free in this cellar
Your letters or texts, fixing this mess
Cause I've been shattered ever since my best friend
Left from this earth and it hurts almost knew him since birth
We were higher than friends now he's down in the dirt
Now you're with him, I think you're with him
I don't even know who the fuck that he is
I know that he's been in my classes and shit
Why does it matter even if I did?
My brother's on drugs
He's shooting his life down the drain
He came for the summer, just giving me pain
Ever since then I haven't been the same
Everything's changing, happening daily
Ever since Aaron is gone
All I have left is you and a facade
I know I'm a pawn
My brother just wanted the money
That's all that he wants
Money can't buy happiness
I'm feeling like I'm half the eclipse
All of these friends that pretend to have faith in me
Say that I'm making it but I'm still hoping
[Verse 3]
You know that I'm broken
You know that I'm soaking these, tears
Drinking the pain away in every beer
I'm hoping you hear the message I have
While I battle my fears, I've battled for years
And now I'm, clear
But can I just vanish?
Had a best friend taken off of this planet
Give me a bandage I'm draining my heart
Draining my soul and my mind, every part
Where do I start? Never was smart
Had every teacher tearing me apart
Know that my dreaming is far, can't afford a car
I'm stuck in my room, all alone in the dark
Is it just, You & Me?
Or am I gonna be the one to bleed?
Am I gonna be the one to leave?
You never wanna see cause I rap alone
With no friends or team, it's just me
And that's how it'll stay
I feel all these visions I have slowly fade
I know without shit that has broken my place
Wouldn't have made me today, but I'm just
Tryna get out
Tryna be the voice for the ones who won't shout
Tryna help the ones who get scared of their house
They're beaten and treated with nothing but doubt
You know that I'm sorry, but I'm just so helpless
All of these songs that I write are just selfish
It's just the emotions I have, I can't help it
I get all these messages saying they've dealt with
Friends dying in arms
I barely know who you are
You open up like it's nothing
And give me your every part
You people are every star
That I see in the night when my breathing is weak
This girl on my phone doesn't know that
I hope she will go and finally choose me