My mental state is sick mind infected by the brick
Happiness is over and I can not get with it
Everyday I toy with the idea of jumping off the ledge
I wish that I could do it but I can't cause I'm a bitch
The only thing I love is something that does not exist
The only thing existing in my life is just this
I don't get to be a father
I don't get to see my kid
I don't even get a choice to tune the voices out my head
Life is torture
Life is struggle
Life is pain that just persists
And frankly I don't have the energy within a fighting pick
Smoking on the balcony, Alone is where I sit
Fienin' for a hit never thinking when I quit
Everybody quit on me but I'm still breathing, breathe it in
Take it in the sound of me pounding my head with my fist
I tried to write a list about everything I was thankful for but I just couldn't do it instead so I came up with this