[Intro]
I don't even know what glass of wine this is
I lost count
This- this not for streams or nothing, it's just for me
Maybe you too
Yeah

[Verse]
At 12 we started seeing bodies
By 15 we got used to hearing about 'em
I mean, death keep happening, how I’m supposed to react?
I found a n***a I grew up with died on the Citizen app
What type of living is that?
Last time all of my friends was alive Chance was still doing tabs
I told my n***a don’t be tougher then next
'Cause pride and fear have n***as do things that you can’t expect
I mean, I seen n***as die young, the city do 'em bad
Never been too tough, I know a lame n***a'll shoot your ass
We can’t be angry at God
The more I live, the more I know this world is a facade
Anyway, we can go any day
The mindset of being paid is man-made
You live forever through how you made them feel
Cause the flesh can’t be saved
Well that’s how I justify these days
I never been the one to cause a scene
Too much esteem in a whip that’s squeaky clean
Even the seats look green, fuck do you mean? (What the f-)
Ayy
Look in my face and see pain in my eyes some of the time
Should've been hate if you learned the demise of some of my guys
Learned be safe before we learned our goodbyes
What’s filling a safe when you tryna survive?
Ain’t know about savings but we know what to say in situations that could help us save our lives
Every night I sleep, all I hear sirens
So much that now they blend in with silence
Assuming that it’s not someone tryna survive the violence
Assuming that it’s not no one I that know that is dying
And then check my Timeline or just get a call that reminds me
That all the assuming that I was doing was actually lying
Thank God that I'm not over drinking too
Or over eating or over sleeping, I’m over thinking too
I know what I did and I know what I said
I almost died a million times, but I ain’t know that God was gone take my homies instead
I pray happiness not a luxury
I pray for peace for all of those who have love for me
I pray to not to debate if today is the day I bring guns with me
'Cause Black plight is another day, and every other day looking ugly
But I know happiness on the horizon
Bad days end at midnight
Even if you lose track of the timing
Even if the same days keep if- if they keep on rewinding
I know happiness is on the horizon, I- I know happiness on the-
Damn
I know happiness on the-
Fuck
I know happiness is on the horizon
I mean, shit, it gotta be
Yeah