[Pre-Chorus]
Ayy, yeah, okay, yeah
I been, yeah, I been, yeah
Okay, yeah, I been, hold up
I been, hold up
[Chorus]
I been somewhere up the road again thinking 'bout my mistakes, yeah
Tryna not get high but I don't think I got what it takes
Maybe this here my fate, losing and finding my place
Just tell God I'ma be late, 'fore I go, gotta see your face
Baby, I thought that you should know that I know you tried
Hard to keep your eyes dry when you're slowly watch me die, yeah
Baby, I thought that you should know that I can't give you much
I was told my whole life that I never would be enough
[Verse]
Ayy, cigarette burns and ash
Life going by too fast
They don't see me, they see cash
Heart broke stuck in a
Yeah, heart broke stuck in a cast
I'm in a constant search
All I wanted was to feel happy, but all I got was hurt
Mix me a Xan with the Perc'
Twenty-seven, feeling like Kurt
Codeine ain't quenching my thirst
Too scared of what's coming next
Yeah, they all love me at my best
But tell me, could you love me at my worst?
Every time they get a glimpse of me
They walk away thinkin' I'm cursed
This ain't real life, this work
Would you love me without the mask?
Would you love me without the cash?
Would you love me for who I am?
Don't judge me for where I've been
I won't lie, it's been a long road
I been tweakin' off a bad bend
But I will never fold, yeah
Walking up to some more bullshit
Gun on me, I'm 'bout to use it
They do not believe I'ma die young
Guess I'ma have to prove it
Counting that guap bittersweet
I got a whole lot on my mind
Done been to the dog, done been to the preacher
Still there ain't shit I could find
I put my heart on a sleeve
They put a knife in my back
Can't sleep, my insomnia back
Them demons controllin' my mind
I done lost count of the times
They turned on me on a dime
So it's only on me I rely
Lord, I'm lookin' for somethin' divine
Tell me how do I talk to God
When I feel so unworthy?
Tell me how do I talk to God
When I'm fucked up and slurring?
Baby, will you still love me?
'Cause I don't think I'm gon' change
Survivor's guilt mixed with fame
All the young die where I hang
[Pre-Chorus]
Ayy, yeah, okay, yeah
I been, yeah, I been, yeah
Okay, yeah, I been, hold up
I been, hold up
[Chorus]
I been somewhere up the road again thinking 'bout my mistakes, yeah
Tryna not get high but I don't think I got what it takes
Maybe this here my fate, losing and finding my place
Just tell God I'ma be late, 'fore I go, gotta see your face
Baby, I thought that you should know that I know you tried
Hard to keep your eyes dry when you're slowly watch me die, yeah
Baby, I thought that you should know that I can't give you much
I was told my whole life that I never would be enough