hamilton
love is just a lie
[Verse 1]
Lost and decayed, my mind is a maze
Can't find the light, so it's dark every day
Running away, I fucked it all up
I'm sorry that I can't be happy enough
I'm trying my best, I swear that I am
My brain wants me dead, and you don't understand
You don't understand, you don't understand
How could you get me? I don't know who I am
First you love me, then you hate me
This not a game, bitch, you can't fucking play me
You broke my heart, but you still fucking blame me
I'm hanging on the edge, and you would never save me (You would never save me)
Smoking blunts 'til my lungs are dust
Yeah, I fucked it up, I don't give a fuck
I have dreams of death every damn night
Man, I hate my life, and this not right
I'm goin' 160 on the freeway, I wanna swerve off into the median
My mom crying on my phone 'cause her son finally let the demons win
I tried my best, put it on my headstone
Lemme rest, my life was full of stress
I'm depressed, she looked me in the eyes
Told me that she loved me, but the love was just a lie
[Chorus]
Love is just a lie, love is just a lie (Love is just a lie)
Love is just a lie (Love is just a lie)
Will I make it out alive? (Will I make it out alive?)
Will I make it through the night? (Will I make it through the night?)
Don't think I'll survive (Don't think I'll survive)
Demons in my mind (Demons in my mind)
Running out of time, running out of time
[Verse 2]
I don't wanna breathe, put my head underwater
R.I.P. my dreams 'cause they're dead and forgotten
I don't have a soul 'cause my ex-girl was rotten
Walking down these halls, all these memories, they haunting
Fell into a nightmare, I'll never wake up
I don't really say much, these people fake tough (Fake tough)
'Cause when I show up, they all go quiet
They can sense my pain; they don't want me to get violent (Yeah, yeah)
Like a star, I am fucking shining
But I'm also burning, which really means I'm dying (Dying)
Yeah, I loved her, but she just loved lying
Took my happiness for simply motherfucking trying
All the pain she put me through, I thought it would be worth it
Now I'm just a mess, and she's still fucking perfect
Just forget me, left me in the past
Ending it tonight just to find the peace at last