Somewhere over the rainbow way up high...


I'm trying to hold myself together but it feels like I'm drowning
It's been a year and I still can't believe your days has been counted
It's been a year and I can't believe I gone so long without you
Damn I miss you so much, I wanna scream and shout it
And I have never held back in telling you how much I love you
How I cherish you and care and how much I love to hug you
But I wish I would've find the right words in our last minutes
Seeing you like this has really pushed me to my limits
I have always feared the day our journey would be finishеd
Don't even know what to say when I gеt asked how I'm feeling
We got countless great memories and one which left me grieving
Our time on earth is limited, I couldn't stand to see you leaving
I tried so many times to write about my feelings
Tried to talk without getting teary, tried to focus up
But I couldn't get a word out, it took so long to open up
Now that I'm writing down my thoughts it feel like I can't stop
All this time I tried to heal from the pain that's in my heart
And the world keeps spinning like mine didn't just fall apart
It hurts to think of you but you're also a shining light in the dark
And if life is a movie then you're for sure the best part
No doubt, you are the best part and you were my best friend
Made me smile so much now I don't know when I'll smile again
How I hate that everything must come to an end
All those laughs and all the tears over the years we shared
I've never felt alone cause I knew that you always cared
I've never felt alone because you were always there
Now I go physically without you but I know you're still here
You're forever in my heart, in my thoughts and my prayers

There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby... somewhere...


Now it's been two years without you, this song takes forever
But I don't mind and I think I'm feeling a little better
I found a way back to myself but things will never be the same
I'm still looking for the right spot to put a tattoo of your name
What I learned about grieve is that it definitely stays
I thought I cried it all out but the tears still find their way
There are things time can heal but this is not going to change
I learned to live with it, it hurts but for the most part I'm okay
I wish you were here, I know you are here in some way
I wonder if you too think about me everyday
Old photographs in my room in pretty picture frames
Our memories have brought the smile back to my face
But I'm scared, afraid that these memories will fade
I force myself to remember and then I slowly step away
I'm scared of the price I will eventually have to pay
Either feel good or end up crying for the rest of the day


Somewhere over the rainbow way up high...


And three years later all of your things are still around
Untouched as if you're gonna be back any minute now
It's still tough but I'm hoping that I make you proud
Tho I can smile again and sometimes even laugh out loud
My heart has no scar there's still an open wound
Years of writing this and I'm not ready to put the pen down
Sometimes it makes me feel good at times it tears me down
Emotions rain down on me from the darkest clouds
Another 4 seasons passed without having you around
My biggest fear is to forget
The sound of your voice
The look in your eyes
The feel of your hug
Your smell
Another 4 seasons passed without having you around
Time doesn't heal everything, you only get used to the pain
I would give everything just for us to spend another day
Reality is always better than walking down memory lane
But if my thoughts are the only way to be with you, I'll take it
I hope heaven treats you well my friend and for the time with you I'm thankful

Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly... birds fly over the rainbow... fly away...